Friday, February 20, 2009

FO: Seamless baby sweater

I finished my first FO for my baby!

This is a seamless, top-down raglan cardigan. It's not unlike the sweater I made for Dakota - in fact, the basic sweater is EXACTLY the same; the only difference is in the construction. "Baby's First Tattoo" was knit in pieces and then seamed together (my first seaming job, which was incredibly difficult for me to get right), but this one was knit all in once piece, with only minor underarm seams to be sewn (and I was very happy about how that turned out).

The yarn is Dream in Color Classy (worsted weight). I had a TON of this left over from another thing I'd made last year, so why let it go to waste? It's beautiful (especially in seed stitch), and it's also machine washable (definitely a plus for baby items). I knit the body of the sweater on circs and after trying to Magic Loop the sleeves and getting really frustrated with the screwy cord of my circs popping in my face all the time, I decided just to switch to DPNs and those went much better. I don't care what that one guy from Green Planet Yarn says - Magic Loop isn't always better for everyone. (I was teaching my friend Kaila to make a hat on DPNs and this guy just would NOT SHUT UP about Magic Loop and I felt he was being very holier-than-thou and insinuating that DPNS were inferior, and it was just really annoying because I never asked for his opinion. Sorry, digression. I hate when people don't mind their own business.)

Anyway, the pattern was good - there were some errors, but nothing I couldn't figure out myself. (You'd think by now I've done enough top-down raglans to just design my own!) I decided not to do any closures for the time being, but if I'm so inclined, I may later on add a clasp or a zipper.

I don't plan to make too many sweaters, especially early on, because babies grow out of clothes quickly. Right now, I'm doing the pinwheel baby blanket and have a couple of my own WIPs that I should probably finish before I get too big to fit in them.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Ugh, morning sickness

I was feeling icky yesterday, but I woke up this morning with a raging headache (so I was already very queasy and sick), and then had to get up and go to the Kaiser lab for a glucose test, so they gave me this bottle of citrus-flavored something that I had to drink right away, so that made me REALLY sick. And then I had to sit around their office for an hour before they could take my blood. Ugh. I thought I was going to lose it right there. The tv was loud and obnoxious, and it was really crowded, so there were people just everywhere and some of them smelled (not bad, but you know how some people just have a scent? And right now I'm very sensitive to people's scents). And there was beeping and a loud printer whirring and seriously... I thought I was going to hurl. And then they drew my blood and I felt even worse, and when I finally came home, I sneezed a huge sneeze and THAT made me feel like I was going to throw up.

But now that I've had something to eat and drink (finally!) I think I'm a little better... I still feel icky, but my head doesn't hurt so much anymore, and I can hold my head up without feeling like my jamba is going to come straight back up. Thank god for apple cinnamon oatmeal.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Is this really happening?

Sometimes I ask myself that question. Actually, I've been asking myself that a LOT lately - is this really happening? Is this baby really happening? It seems like one minute I was feeling slightly ill and tired all the time, and now I've got stacks of pregnancy books and pamphlets from the doctor's office and my big 18 week ultrasound has been scheduled. It's a whirlwind, isn't it? It's surreal that I'm supposed to be carrying on normally at work every day, while seeing pictures of this little kidney bean growing inside me and reading that my uterus is the size of a grapefruit now. I've seriously only seen my baby on the screen once. I have slightly irrational moments when I think I've imagined the whole thing, or I worry that the baby has just disappeared, to trick me. I'm reading all these books and looking at illustrations of fetal development, and I'm experiencing the same thing that I would imagine people would experience the first time they learn things are made of atoms which are broken down into nuclei and electron clouds - how do I know something is really there? I just have to accept it on faith.

The flickering on the screen was real (and I also was not the only person to witness it), and considering how I feel fine, I'm sure the baby hasn't gone anywhere. No one ever talks about how much of pregnancy is such a waiting game - waiting for my next appointment, waiting for the baby to develop, waiting for my tummy to show... Seriously, there's nothing I can do right now (other than the usual "eat right, stay healthy" sort of actions) to make this experience more certain, more confident, other than to wait. Waiting drives me crazy.

I know by the time I get to the end of it, these nine months will be a blip in the timeline and I have much more long-term things to deal with ahead of me, but for now, it's driving me crazy to wait for the days to pass, to wait to have answers. For now, my only solace is to look forward to every doctor's appointment because those are the only times I can know for sure that everything is okay and that everything IS REALLY HAPPENING.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

My little nudger.

I went to the doctor's today, and we found a heartbeat. I've never been so happy to see a tiny flickering in my life.

My bean baby. Everything is really okay!