Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Watching my Weight

I joined Weight Watchers yesterday.

This will be my last paid-diet attempt. I've done Nutrisystem; I've done Jenny Craig (for like, two weeks). I've even tried Slim Fast and diet pills (which also didn't last long because I hate taking pills), and I swear I've at LEAST flipped through every diet book known to man (or at least, our local Borders), and I think I've bought and donated more of them than most people own in a lifetime. I am a woman obsessed.

The odd thing is, the only diet "plan" I could ever stick to was when I had gestational diabetes. Granted, I HAD to stick to it. But I like to tell myself that I COULD have phoned it in (like the lady in our GD seminar who INSISTED that there was no possible way she and her family could switch to skim milk or even 2%), but instead, I stuck to it. And I think I really have that to thank for the fact that as soon as my uterus was done deflating, I was back to my pre-pregnancy size and weight almost right away.

The problem, of course, is that my pre-pregnancy size and weight were quite large to begin with. But I don't want to just phone it in anymore. Now, I don't want to EVER go back to a diabetic diet (and, actually, if I lose weight now, I will lessen my chances of that), but I found a way to make it work for me so I didn't feel too miserable all the time, and I think Weight Watchers will allow me to do that - find a way that works for me. I used to think that the only way I'd be successful is if someone else told me exactly what I needed to do and eat (hence, food delivery programs like Nutrisystem or Jenny Craig, or even meal replacements like Slim Fast), but I'm realizing that this is NOT the way. OBVIOUSLY. I mean, beneath my mild exterior lurks the heart of a rebel, and it is no wonder that those diets eventually got boring/restrictive/ridiculous, because there was no room for flexibility. Also, I hated having to turn down invites from friends (I have so few of them in the first place!)

So today is day 1 of WW. So far I've just had breakfast. So far, so good. I've been doing the Shred since Friday - today is day 5, but I took a rest day on day 3 (which I regretted, but I did wake up with horrible headache that day. But it gave my muscles a chance to heal and stop being so sore, which I definitely don't regret.) I noticed yesterday that some of the moves felt easier (read: I wasn't dying quite nearly so much). So, I guess this really works :)

And the most important part is that I'm feeling pretty good - not stressed out, not worried (except for all the money I'm spending on getting fit), and I'm looking forward to carrying this out long term. I'm not feeling like, "I can't WAIT for this to be over." And I really feel like it's within my ability to lose weight - next week when I go back to the meeting, I fully expect to see at least one pound down. (Note to self - always wear flip flops to meetings!)

So all in all, things are looking good, and so am I.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

30 Day Shred

So, one of the greatest things about pregnancy was that I could give my body a pass - it didn't matter how big I was getting or what I looked like, because my body was doing a beautiful thing (growing a baby), and therefore, it was beautiful.

On the other hand, one of the worst things about pregnancy was that I was very limited in what I could do physically. It was while I was pregnant that I really missed running and lifting weights. And I was literally about to re-join roller derby when I found out I was pregnant, so... yeah, that was over before it started.

So it's October now. Jolie is 2 months old. I no longer have a pass... but then again, I no longer have anything holding me back. There is one recruitment meeting left for this season for SVRG, and I'm going to do it, and I'm going to do it the right way. I'm not taking it for granted this time - I'm going to learn how to skate, I'm going to learn the sport, and I'm going to whomp ass. Seeing as how the last recruitment meeting was during the summer, this is literally my first opportunity to rejoin SVRG, and I'm going to take it.

But... like I said, I'm going to do it the right way. And I skated enough last time to know that skating is HARD. It's a hard workout, and I was nowhere near remotely in good shape when I joined last time, so I was sore constantly (and not even from falling). So in the month that I have left, I'm going to get into shape as best I can - maybe I'll lose weight, maybe not, but I need to strengthen these muscles and be aerobically fit so I can stay on my feet and keep up with the others.

Which brings me to... Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred. Three levels of workouts, every day, 30 days to do it. I don't want to kid myself, so I started at level 1 yesterday, and it was really hard. I thought I was going to die after about 5 minutes, and this morning, I woke up with all sorts of sore muscles that I thought had gone into hiding since I was pregnant. (But on the bright side, I can FEEL my abs again!) I did it again this morning, and it felt even harder, probably because of all my soreness. But it felt good to finish, and I'm going to try to keep this up, because I know I have much more difficult challenges ahead when I finally get back to skating. But hopefully I will be in better shape than ever.

As for the dvd itself, I like it a lot (and I've seen a lot of exercise dvds in my day!) This might be the least hokey exercise dvd I've ever seen - most of the time, the women in the videos are totally peppy and smiley like ex-cheerleaders, and this really makes me want to punch them. There is some motivational talk in 30 Day Shred, but it's not annoying, and Jillian Michaels is not a bouncy aerobics instructor. So, I really appreciate that. Also, I noticed that one of her helper models was actually SWEATING. Again, I've seen a lot of exercise dvds, and it never seems like the models are actually working very hard, and again, this makes me want to punch them. So I appreciate that this dvd is not condescending and doesn't treat me like I'm stupid.

So, 2 days down... 28 to go...

Pause and reflect

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