Monday, September 20, 2010

Down for the count

I'm sick. I have a cold and a sore throat, which sounds fairly harmless, except that colds and sore throats make me loopy. I'm in a total haze (and I'm not even medicated). I cannot wrap my head around anything that needs to be done right now - grading, updating my book with new students, planning ahead, none of it. If it were acceptable to do so, I would put my head down on my desk and nap while my kids are watching their movie.

I've been exhausted and stressed out lately (lack of sleep, lots of work), which I would guess weakens my immune system, and everyone knows that school is a germ fest. So now I'm sick and muddled and I can't take a day off because I really do have to be here to teach things - I can't even begin to formulate something a sub can do.

Monday, September 13, 2010

To bootcamp or not to bootcamp?

Dear Blog,

I am faced with a difficult decision. SVRG's bootcamp is starting up again in three weeks. Now, before you get upset, I definitely have no plans to abandon the Mizfitz. They are my team, and I don't walk out on my team. Rather, the reason why I'm interested in doing bootcamp again is because 1) it's more opportunities to skate coached practices (because you know how much I suck at going skating on my own and making it a worthwhile workout), and 2) it's another crack at passing the WFTDA minimum skills test, and sooner - the Mizfitz are aiming for February to test everyone.

My reservations are as follows:

- We already practice three nights a week, and fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it), the bootcamp practices fall on two nights where I wouldn't have Mizfitz practice. That means five days a week of hard, intense workouts, and they all happen to be five days in a row (Sunday through Thursday). Now, if it were summer, it wouldn't be a problem. But school has just started up again, and I'm already trying really hard to stay healthy (I'm sipping tea and honey as we speak) and I'm doing everything I can to stop nodding off in the middle of traffic. I'm exhausted. Can I handle it? Or will I be stiff and achy and complainy every day of the week?

- This is a busy time of year right now at school, as we have homecoming coming up, and that dance is a senior class responsibility. But then again, after that's over, we have no major events to be responsible for until after winter break.

- It's another two nights a week away from Jolie. This is my major one. I don't want to be an absent mom. And even though my parents LOVE having her over, I feel guilty having to depend on them to watch her so much already. Again, if it were summer, at least I'd have the whole day to spend with her, but now I don't. I'm gone ALL day, I come home for maybe an hour or so before I have to drop her off at my parents' before I go to practice. I feel like I miss out on a lot already.

- It's more money that I could probably use elsewhere - buying new knee pads, paying off my new skates.

But... it's bootcamp! I LOVED bootcamp - the bonds of being put through the gauntlet are strong. It's a chance to better myself as a skater and learn and grow and progress and possibly kick WFTDA's ass. And that means a lot.

I really don't know what to do, but I have to decide soon, because they only have 50 spots open, and at last count, at least 250 girls who also want to do it. So... I just don't know.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

I've got a brand new pair of roller skates, you've got a brand new key



... And these will go right back in the box until my Rebels completely wear away. I'm not introducing my Wickeds to that crappy asphalt until I absolutely have to!

I feel like Gollum/Smeagol in The Lord of the Rings, whispering in that evil voice, "My preciousssssssssss..."

Friday, September 10, 2010

Weekend o' Derby Ahead

Tomorrow is SKATES day. The day I finally buy new skates, the Riedell Wickeds, pictured at left.

This is a pretty momentous occasion. These aren't just new skates to replace my beat up Sure Grip Rebels - these are an UPGRADE. Rebels are an excellent entry-level package, and I wouldn't be sorry to buy them again.

But the WICKEDS... they are definitely stepping up! They are a commitment - you don't buy skates this expensive unless you plan to stick with derby (or unless you don't have any other options). This is me saying, I'm going to be doing this a while, and I need some better skates!!!

So this is what I'm up to tomorrow morning. In the evening, I'll be volunteering for the first game of SVRG's last home bout of the season. And then on Sunday evening, the Mizfitz have a league meeting :)

Oh, the excitement!

Here's what's coming to me in the mail:


OH YES!

Reviews to come when they arrive!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Hello world, I'm your wild girl!

(I know, it's been a while! Been busy with work, baby, and roller derby.)

So, I've had the Runaway's "Cherry Bomb" stuck in my head for a couple of days (LOVED the movie!), so today's look is inspired by that song. It's PINK eyeshadow - pink with an attitude!


Here's how I did it:

- UDPP (not pictured, because I ALWAYS use it)
- UD eyeshadow in Woodstock (bright magenta pink, from the Sephora-exclusive summer collection) all over lid and just slightly above crease with a wide soft blender brush
- UD eyeshadow in Free Love (peachy-colored, from the same collection) patted on top of the pink and then blended upwards into the crease
- UD eyeshadow in Skimp (vanilla-colored with gold flecks, from the UD Beauty in a Box, also Sephora-exclusive) as a highlight, and blended into the crease slightly
- UD Ink for Eyes in Empire (deep purple) as a liner on the upper lid
- UD eye pencil in Lucky (copper-colored) on the lower rims
- MAC Zoom Lash mascara

I know, it doesn't help that the three eyeshadows I used are Sephora-exclusive, but they ARE available right now! It's not like I used discontinued, hard-to-find ones :)

This isn't a look I would wear normally to work, but I kinda like it. It's unusual, especially for me, since I don't usually choose such vibrant colors.




Friday, September 3, 2010

That went pretty well, I think!

So, that was probably the best first-week-of-school I've EVER had!

And I'm saying this cautiously because I don't want to jinx myself - so far, my kids are nice, and mostly attentive, and mostly open-minded. I haven't had any (*knock on wood*) jerks who give me attitude or who just won't do anything; there aren't any kids I'm afraid will cut me; there isn't even a particular period that I am afraid of teaching. Even a few kids who look like they really don't want to participate in things were cracking a smile at a couple of the activities we're doing.

Am I doing things differently? Yes. I'm trying to be more attentive. I feel like I was such a horrible teacher these past two years (with the pregnancy and then Jolie's first year), that I need to be extra dedicated to at least attempt to make up for all those days that I wasn't there for them. I want to be there for these kids.I want to love my job again. And right now, I do. I haven't dreaded going into work in the morning this whole week - I was actually excited today, because my sophomores were performing skits that I knew would be hilarious.

I'm not saying it's going to be easy for the rest of the year - I've got lots of, um, very chatty and energetic kids - but it makes it easier to get up in the morning knowing that I don't have to dread anything.